Until around the age of 6, I was completely convinced I was a robot.
I was an inventive toddler who loved to dream up new worlds in which I could hide away from all problems and lose myself in my imagination. Not only did I use these worlds as a personal escape from reality, but I used them to escape from people.
I had difficulties communicating with others — to the point where I felt disconnected and different. I convinced myself that because I couldn't speak to others something was deeply wrong with me, so naturally, my childhood brain dreamed up the idea that I was a tin man. It was easier for me to believe that I was actually part machine than a girl who simply lacked communication skills and was painfully shy.
I often dreamed of ways of communicating with others without actually having to face the humiliating repercussions of a conversation gone sour.
My prayers were answered at the end of my freshman year in high school when I was coaxed into trying a website that would allow me to put a computer screen between me and the person I was conversing with: Facebook.
When I first signed up for Facebook I didn't realize what a colossal impact it would have on my life. As soon as I hit the confirm button and my social networking account sprang into existence I was addicted. I soon began feverishly sending out friend requests, updating statuses every few hours, and messaging people who I was too afraid to talk to in person.
Facebook became my personal voicebox, a way for me to scrape off the rust that had built up on my steely façade and communicate with others as I never had before. I was always enthralled when I logged on and saw the message icon glow red which signaled another person to converse with. I was slowly becoming more and more sociable without ever opening my timid mouth. Soon, however, my social butterfly wings were ripped off as reality came crashing down on me.
Facebook consumed me. My communication skills began to progressively worsen as I held a majority of my conversations over the Internet. I became just another part in the mechanism that is Facebook. My face soon became my profile picture, my voice morphed into the keyboard that sent my messages, my brain became my statuses and the statuses of others on my newsfeed, my eyes became glazed over from the sight of it all.
I had thought that Facebook was my saving grace, a way for me to interact with other people. But the truth is, it stripped me of my ability talk to others. My shyness pushed me into creating an identity for myself online, but in all reality, I was isolating myself from the world.
Facebook was a way to interact with others, but a computer screen can never take the place of an actual feeling, breathing person or the way you feel around them. Facebook can never act as a replacement for human interaction, because that would be as impossible as trying to turn a pile of tin into a human being.
By my seventh birthday, I concluded that I, in fact, was not a robot. But I was wrong. I am still a robot. We all are.
Facebook crafts us all into robots. Not the kind I envisioned myself as when I was a child, but the kinds that are cold, calculating machines that suck in information and then spit it back out without a second thought. The kinds that hide behind computer screens because they can no longer speak for themselves. The breed like me, who conform to society by creating a website account that steals your very voice and turns you into a cold, hard shell of a being instead of the people you truly are.
Maggie Marshall is graduating from Elk Rapids High School this month.
Generation Why
Facebook buries the true person
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I'm growing up with the Great Lakes
Flashback. Seats covered in what would now be considered horrendous upholstery and a car seat confining my limbs, thus preventing all mischievous movement.
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Even in the desert, I see the lakes
The sweltering sun seared my skin as I clumsily mounted an oversized Dromedary camel. It was barely 11 a.m. and temperatures had already approached levels of intolerable proportions.
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Family loves llamas in the mix
On a cold Christmas morning, Graceanne Tarsa crawls out of bed, but instead of running to the pile of presents and bulging stockings under the family's brightly lit tree, she heads out to the barn to feed the animals.
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Bedrooms give teens a place of their own
No matter where someone falls on the spectrum of organization, our bedroom is an expression of our personal style and an extension of ourselves.
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School dance is wrong place to flaunt it
Say goodbye to gowns and dance cards and hello to strategically ripped shirts, neon tights and bare skin.
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Anonymous protects what's morally right
Anonymous is an anarchy based group of computer nerds. This group of computer hackers has a long history, and it originates in 2003 as a popular Internet meme.
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Things are far apart and I can't drive
For the past seven months I've been a foreign student in Traverse City. There were many strange things I had to get used to, and many things I had to give up to — but I have no regrets.
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Michigan is big, with lots of trees
I have been in Michigan for seven months. I come from Rennes, in France, and I decided last year to spend one year in the Michigan to discover another culture and an another environment.
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Fearing for a life
Have you ever woken up at 2 a.m. thinking you might lose a loved one? I live with a sister who has Type 1 diabetes.
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Buy your own car, teenagers
Every teenager should purchase their own first car. Parents should not buy their children's cars or pay for their gas and insurance.
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Social Media: Swept up in the crowd
My three-month vacation was dedicated to nothing but the quest for knowledge. Now things are not the same. Something new, flashy and exciting has caught my eyes. And my ears. And my thumbs.
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Social Media: Lost magic of conversation
Little did my friend or I know, we were taking a plunge into the defining factor of my era, which would push the limits of social privacy, acceptability and communication beyond anything anyone has seen before.
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Looking for GenWhy writers, photographers
Generation Why is looking for writing and photography from high school students in the five-county Record-Eagle coverage area.
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Drugs — how to kill and destroy lives
Cannabis destroyed my life. I smoked cannabis and it hasn't gotten me anywhere ... actually it has, but not in a good way.
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Diseased, their diseases, their families
Year in and year out, families get shaken up and their lives changed drastically by the agonizing diagnoses of the ones they love.
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Pro: DNA effective in solving crimes
As technology advances law enforcement personnel are gaining access to new methods of identifying suspects and convicting criminals. DNA testing is becoming extremely accurate.
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Con: Innocent don't belong in database
Law enforcement should not be able to collect the DNA from anyone unless they are convicted of a crime. Taking someone's DNA before they are convicted will force the suspect to be in the DNA database even if they are innocent.
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Looking for writers, photographers
Generation Why is looking for writing and photography from high school students in the five-county Record-Eagle coverage area.
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I'll use my words to explore
It is a funny thing, being a creative writer. I wanted to show my talent and illustrate exactly my love for the art of words in my essay. Alas, it was too long; clever, but long.
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Required reading changes relationships
First off, I am an avid reader. It is unusual that a book like "The Hunger Games" slipped under my radar for so long; I only had the opportunity to read it in my Science Fiction class as a required book.
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Despite backgrounds, I feel a connection
I stayed up almost past 1 a.m. in my room all alone, on a school night, flipping as fast as I could through the pages of "The Hunger Games," because I couldn't stand falling asleep without knowing how Katniss and Peeta escape the trap the Capitol set up for them.
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Genre crosses cultural lines
I have never been into science fiction; in fact, I have never read a book, nor watched a movie within this genre. I have never really figured out why people would want to make up things way out of our reality, and enjoy it.
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Looking for writers, photographers
Generation Why is looking for writing and photography from high school students in the five-county Record-Eagle coverage area.
Continued ... - Monday, December 5, 2011
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I'm growing up with the Great Lakes



